Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Welcome 2015.

Well, wasn't 2014 interesting.

Personally, I'm glad it's over. Subconsciously I think I took a twelve-month "time-out". I withdrew and focused mostly on keeping sane. I am sure people wondered what was going on with me, and I am sure everyone took it personally an thought it had everything to do with them. Humans, they be selfish. Don't hold it against them.

Well, I'm back. I'm open and ready for business. And I am sorry to say this has absolutely nothing to do with you. Selfish humans. 

I took some time off for the Holidays, giving me a chance to have some time home alone with no one around but Pluto and Lulu. They only judge as cats are want to do, and do not interject and throw their own opinions at you like it's holy sermon, so they're acceptable silent companions. After god knows how many years I've started writing again, and it feels good. It feels new, which is the best part. And challenging. Like I've never done it before. Which, in a way, I haven't. Because this isn't poetry. It's something else. It's a thing I love and a thing I've never attempted to create before myself. It could be a total failure and a total waste of time, but as I keep telling my husband, it's THE JOURNEY that counts more than WHERE YOU END UP. The end is just the end, so who wants to get there before you die? Fuck that. Not me.

Come on 2015, I am ready. The journey continues.

Sunday, December 21, 2014

"20,000 Days On Earth"

"You know I can control the weather with my moods. I just can't control my moods." - Nick Cave

One of the best, most beautiful, most inspiring documentaries I have ever seen.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Everyone Wants Bike Messengers

Corporate employment is definitely UP in NYC for bike messengers.

First, Uber announced they will start using messengers:

Then, Amazon announced they too will start using messengers:

Who's next? Starbucks? Target? Best Buy?? Barnes & Noble???

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Birthday at Billymarks.

From last night, me and my drunk celebrating my 38 years of being.

He looks like a mental patient. I am aware of it.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Yesterday Morning I Became A Husband.

We got legally hitched at Brooklyn City Hall...

...then afterwards we got matching tattoos at Flyrite, sealing the deal.

And I've never felt happier.

Friday, November 21, 2014

Against The Moon

Another awesome video from my favorite band:

All set to go!

December 1 is the BIG DAY.

Monday, October 27, 2014


Happy Monday. Bitches.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Listen to Iceage's new album, "Plowing Into the Field of Love"

Album drops next week. Can't wait!! Stream the entire album here:

Friday, September 5, 2014

A great Joan Rivers interview from 1999

I love what she says about staying current (especially about music).

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Goddamnit, Joan. I'll fucking miss you.

And another iconic comedian bites the dust.

I don't have many heroes, but this bitch was one of them. Truly. Goddamn.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Walt Whitman is a god.

I'm reading 'Leaves of Grass' for the first time. I am absolutely touched and moved and captivated. I don't want to go to sleep.

Monday, August 11, 2014

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Fiona. Pure Genius.

OK so I've pretty much spent this entire week drinking so far. That's it. It's only Wednesday, so... maybe I'll be productive tomorrow? Yeah. Right. Well, drinking isn't the only thing I've done. I've also read 500+ pages of "Dance of Dragons" so far. But so what. George R.R. Martin is a very, verrrrrrry easy read.

"The Idler Wheel Is Wiser Than the Driver of the Screw and Whipping Cords Will Serve You More Than Ropes Will Ever Do" is one of the most genius records ever recorded. EVER. Ever ever ever ever ever.

There's only one recording artist who's ever been able to hit my crushes 100% on the head. From my college until today, Fiona Apple feels crushes and desires exactly the same way that I do. There's a strange perfect little soul mate I find in her music. It makes me happy even when it makes me sad.

"The Idler Wheel Is Wiser Than the Driver of the Screw and Whipping Cords Will Serve You More Than Ropes Will Ever Do" is on repeat this week from start to finish. God, I need to get this album on vinyl!

Tuesday, July 1, 2014


Enjoying a week off from work at home with the babies. Here they are seeing Daddy #2 off to his work.

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Familiar Voices

I just realized how much Amanda Palmer's voice sounds like Nico's voice. And it makes me happy and warm inside. (Rock & Roll is the best thing the Human Race ever came up with. Seriously.)

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Compliant Department

This photo pretty much sums of the state of life these days. If you don't get what I mean, shoot me an email and I'll explain it to you.

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Monday, June 16, 2014

Damn You, New York.

Hey, New York. You, The Big Apple. I'm talking to you. I gave you thirteen intense years of my life. What have you ever done for me?

Like thousands of other New Yorkers I bust my balls day in day out working for the man, trying to survive while keeping The Dream alive, living paycheck to paycheck, hoping that one day an unknown wealthy relative who lives in an old mansion on the Upper East Side is going to pass away and leave me millions of dollars. I know it’s not going to happen, just like I know I’ll never become a rock star. But somehow the dream lives on, embarrassingly enough.

The money in my bank account doesn't reflect my talent nor does it reflect my effort nor does it reflect the amount of hours I work a week. What does it reflect? EXCELLENT QUESTION. The answer is complicated, and would involve a particular level of theoretical explanation I’m not really patient enough to delve into right now. But one thing is certain: I POUR MY BODY AND SOUL INTO THIS CITY. I AM ONE OF THE THOUSANDS OF HARD-WORKING PEOPLE WHO MAKES NEW YORK… NEW YORK. NEW YORK FUCKING CITY. And I get almost nothing in return. I barely get a “Thank You”.

AND I’LL PROBABLY NEVER BE ABLE TO OWN “MY OWN HOME” IN THIS CITY. (I have standards; I am not in the financial position nor the right state of mind to attempt to purchase a studio apartment in the far reaches of Brooklyn for over $400,000, which is probably the best I’d be able to afford in this city. I love NYC a lot, but I am also not stupid. I refuse to be what they call a ‘house poor’ home owner.)

So what’s next? Do I abandon this strangely exciting place and go somewhere normal and boring, just so I can own my home and have a little bit of money in my savings account? Is that what needs to happen? New York, why are you willing to break up with me so easily? I thought this was true love. What did I do wrong? I may not be a rock star (yet), but I am pretty damn good at what I do! Is this really goodbye? Will you ever reward me for being… me?

Monday, June 2, 2014

Back to Monday....

Monday, again. Boo.

Took this photo just now, the backyard is ready for some Summer grillin! Will probably begin our Summer BBQ's in a week or two.. or three. Depending on motivation.

Friday, May 30, 2014

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

music gets you through.

I've been focusing on a few bands recently as I try to deal with my placement within the world. Maybe not the world, but definitely the walls that surround me. But instead of bitching about $$$$ I instead focus on music. Lately I've had on repeat these three bands: The Wytches, Vår, and Lust For Youth. Two of these bands, The Wytches and Lust For Youth have upcoming album releases quickly approaching. 6/10 for Youth and 8/28 for Wytches (I already got my vinyl pre-orders in for both). OK so maybe August isn't so quickly approaching, but the way my life is spiraling these days it will be here before I realize it. And by then I probably still won't have my life/world placement figured out yet. Whatev's. Is 37 too old for prostitution?

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Friday, April 25, 2014

An amazing use of materials

Obviously the budget was limitless, but regardless, this is as gorgeous as gorgeous gets. Right on, Cutscape Architecture.

Monday, April 21, 2014

My new band-crush, The Wytches.

An AWESOME song, called Wireframe Matress, listen here:

Dude... I gotta get me some more Wytches!

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Easter Asshole.

This is what an Easter Asshole looks like.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

JRR Tolkien's translation of Beowulf is being published!

It only took 90 years, but JRR Tolkien's translation of Beowulf is finally coming to bookshelves across the globe this May. More details over at the Guardian:

And at HarperCollins:

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Chelsea on Howard

Two of my favorite personalities, together like chocolate and peanut butter.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Crimson & Clover

Not much to say right now, other than the fact that Thursday calls for one of my all-time favorite songs (make sure your volume is maxed up!):

Sunday, March 9, 2014

You Don't Own It... But It's Still Yours

The creative process is an interesting one. Collaboration is always key, and teamwork is what makes it happen. No one actually owns any of it. It's free-form reality. It's linear and it evolves and it really only owns itself. There's also no such thing as an "original idea". Originality doesn't lie in an idea. There are no original ideas. Originality lies in the INTERPRETATION of an idea. Any jackass knows that. Or at least they should. If you don't (talking to you, shitty teammate), then you should step aside and leave more room for all the other crazy cooks we got in our kitchen.

That said: When you work on a part of something and then pass it on to someone else, the thing that you worked on isn't yours anymore. But in the creation process you left a trace of yourself in whatever you touched. So if the next person now works on the part containing a trace of you, they owe you enough consideration and respect to at least involve you in the discussion before they completely reinvent and throw away the piece of the puzzle that contained a trace of you. Am I right??? Or am I right??

You can rest assured that I will not be stepping in the way of karma when it comes around next.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Ecstasy is...

Fuck you.

You've never been me and you never will be.

*end of rant*

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Titus Andronicus

I'm loving this band. They're helping me survive a WORK WEEK FROM BLOODY FUCKING HELL.

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Victor Hugo, The Artist

Up until recently I never knew that one of my favorite authors, Victor Hugo, was also an artist, and had created countless illustrations to go with his writing. I won't say too much about his images, mostly because I think they speak well enough for themselves. Enjoy, and be inspired!

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Right On, Macklemore.

If this performance doesn't bring at least one tear to your eye, then you must be a stone-cold Republican.

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Just because I am never satisfied...

Hello there. Long time no blog. That seems to be the first sentence of every blog I post. Anyway.

I'm coming back to my blog. I've deleted all my Facebook, Twitter, and Pinterest accounts in an attempt to bring more reality to my life. Deleting all those things was just part of the overhaul. Revamping my blog and website is the next part. "But aren't these things still part of the virtual world you're trying to rebel against?", you might ask. Well, yes, you would be correct if you were to ask that. But more on that later...

Good night,